essence of life

Long time no see

2010-12-13T22:34:00.001+08:00

It's been long since my last post. It has been a hectic sem ever since sem 2.2 started. Just when Gary mentioned about the internship i was thinking it felt so close yet so far. my aspirations? flight attendant

From young i always envied/looked up to the way the flight attendants giving off an aura of confidence as they stride down the airport aisle, behaving as if everyone was under them... I love the feeling, and often thought to myself, how good will it be to be one of them ^^

as i typed the above paragraph, repunzel the movie's song poped into my mind, The scene where repunzel asked the gangsters" do you have a dream? " . It set my mind into a whirlwind of thoughts..

its term tests now and i wish, everyone, the world will be happy when they receive their papers back when term re opens... everyone's celebrating with their friends.. also hope everyone will be in best of health to welcome the new year

Hope to go back to a nice beach where i will truely miss and deeply printed in my mind. Imagine myself standing alone, listening to the waves and sea breeze, time freezing to eternity.

Nothing will change my love for you......

listening ear, there?

2010-11-01T21:11:00.000+08:00

yet another nonsense day from my nonsense-licious family.. Again

You never fail to make so much noise to irritate me to boiling point YET cause me to quarrel with another person because fo your mistake. Always!

You have successfully chased people out & yet you behave like a child. Stubborn, un-open i would describe you. What's the point of asking someone to complete one task when you do not even trust him/her? blame people for your mistake because you are more senior. act and gain pittiness from people. FUCK YOU

sometimes i really need a listening ear to vent all my anger.................................................

yet another disappointment

2010-09-25T21:24:00.002+08:00

Dint got the results i expected. was expecting all As, but in the end.....

Cant stop feeling pain whenever i think of it. my future, uni, career, competition for vacancies....

pissed ttm

2010-09-06T19:12:00.000+08:00

srsly, there's literally disgusting food at home right now, which pisses me off. When 'm so hungry the food that was cooked, one words. ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

Soggy fish ball soup that was not cooked nicely without red dates added. Fishball was not even Q, was soggy ttm which tasted rubber. Other than this, was just a nonsensical bittergourd fried egg. PISSED ttm. I WANT SOME NICE FOOOOOOOD !

Sad. Happy. ?

2010-09-01T22:34:00.001+08:00

Suddenly, his words began to ring in my mind incessantly. What he said the other day was so freaking true. 每个人只会顾自己的利益，很自私. After experiencing today thought was a little so true, but shall not elaborate.

Anw happy birthday HK, you have been a great friend. hope you one day can become a director :P

< something funny that was not deleted from blog pic since sec 4 .. enjoy !

$ crisis

2010-08-22T21:38:00.001+08:00

need to get more jobs during holiday.. Anyway something i ate that i found nice yesterday ^^

long time no food review le.. I promise I'll be back to do more once exam finishes ^^

dis-----

2010-08-08T22:28:00.000+08:00

feeling LO sometimes which what i've felt recently..

For example, today was a horrible day.. ultr anormal sunday .. probably lack to my social interaction people, like what a relative told be yesterday - 种什么因就有什么果。好的因必有好果。

Guess its so freaking true. Seriously i think i'm gonna break down. and further more there has been Perhaps as a result i have been too indulgent into impulsive buying and buying many things which i do not need. the process of buying things keeps me happy, in a satisfied mood of time. However, once it stops, my mood crashes. Haix.... and because of that i spent approx a month's worth of allowances on apparel...

~~no friends to play card, no friends to play ____, no ___________, all i have is __________~~

2010-08-05T23:43:00.002+08:00

loneliness, emptiness, hoplessly priceless

project screw it up.

2010-07-27T20:55:00.001+08:00

i need all the tool kits in the world to do this

at an abrupt loss of words

2010-07-26T08:51:00.000+08:00

idk how to react to the upcoming presentation when 1/2/3 grp member(s) have so many commitments and NO time to rehearse slides that idk....
totally ruined monday morning/ set mood for the day

Foxtrot

emo, exasperated

2010-07-25T21:37:00.000+08:00

today, worst nightmare of the day. The mad, hectic rush to complete the GROUP project.

Went to the meeting, thinking i was the last to arrive, but i wasn't. To my horror was there was little progress when i finally arrived. There was someone later than me.

Then went for lunch one hour later, already trying my best to type the project report. I could feel my bad temper coming up already. (typical impatient)

One left, followed by another 1 hr later.

The last one also left, citing that he coudnt survive if he didnt live, showing the already attitude, thi nking of he/himself.

IDK. i feel helpless and stressed up. AS if i was doing 70% part 2. idk, is it i overestimated myself or was it the fact????

One by one leaving, with so little time, seeing nonchalent attitude here & there. I really don't know how to react. I feel so....... hai.......
why must i always worry bout things people do not worry even if it affects their results?

Charlie charlie bravo, kilo november november, papa charlie bravo, foxtrot uniform charlie victor....... Crap !

Helplessness

2010-07-13T22:07:00.000+08:00

The swimming routine on usual tuesday today made me emo today =X

Was initially in a semi-emo mood. Tending towards happiness before the usual tuesday swim. Converesely halfway during the swim i felt a little emo/helpless.

When i was swimming at a faster pace for a few lap, i seemed to have somehow lost the consistency of taking breaths after every stroke done. As a result i gulped a few gulps of disgusting pool water. I sank slightly deeper as a result. When i came up gasping for more air, i swallowed in even more water instead. This continued one more time.

At that instant, i thought i was gonna die. I felt so helpless, useless and angry for being so lousy at swimming. I blamed myself. I couldnt breathe properly. Furthermore when friend asked me if i needed help, i replied him (being egoistic) i was ok.

When i reached the end of the pool, i went to a rapid bubble blowing frenzy in an attempt to get a more regular breathing pattern.

But what lingered in my mind the whole afternoon following that was the helpless and the feeling of weaklessness. Was contemplating, what if i die, what if.... Will anyone care for me? Will anyone notice my departure of this world...?

up down left right out

2010-07-12T20:23:00.000+08:00

felt lousy the whole day.

Felt so lonely throughout the whole day. Not only for 1, 2 ,3 hours, but for 5 hours !!!

was pissed and angry since the start of the lunch. Felt very very left out. Friends in my usual clique did not even talk to me... To the point where i suggested A to sit with me just to talk...Felt so sad to max that i just find any random people to talk with.

They simply ignored me/did not acknowledged my presence throughout. So i tried to be accomodating first....But it was useless, not the first time i felt it already... haix....

oh well, things will be btr i hope..

High spirits

2010-07-11T21:30:00.000+08:00

Everything feels so good till afternoon =)

Morning went to training with a good mood Perhaps sun's shining making me in high spirits!!..

Recently the training has became more flexible...We can now practice/teach irimi nage in more patterns =D. Next learnt new tips on shiho nage frm sensei followed by my fav kotegaeshi !!! PPL complaining mine too dangerous =.=

After training, good time shopping at ntuc. Though the queue was long, i waited patiently.

Then went to jog round the reservoir with the hill !! dam happy to the max, i did not i expect i could complete the round and still survived. Then the unexpected happened.... Saw her on the way hme, totally caught me off guard (no time to react at all). I froze there for what was an eternity, rubbing my eyes in utter disbelief. Hai, gotta honour my promise. but overall gd mood la...

Then shopped with her and him at ntuc before going our ways.....

What a no sociall but happy day.. . =)

Trend and or......?

2010-07-09T18:30:00.002+08:00

Was a little disappointed/upset over what happened just now. For me i tend to get more and more particular over small things rather than big issues.

Walking home a little disappointed at someone, thinking of Mr. Sierra's words during tutorial on Wednesday.

"The younger generation lack the initiative to say the 3 magical words - please, sorry & excuse me. I found it so true, (maybe I'm old)."

I was iniculcated the value of saying the 3 words and perhaps I was not affected by what Mr. Sierra said. Rather, i was upset by seemingly unhurtful words that had some sense of insult/mockery within . My particular personality side of me came out. Was so pissed that i just stomped away

Shall not say who/what happened.... oh well.....is there even anyone reading?

So True..

2010-07-07T22:00:00.002+08:00

Weather

2010-07-03T10:11:00.000+08:00

Weather on 3rd July 2010, 1000 GMT+8

METAR WSSS 030200Z VRB01KT 7000 -RA FEW015 FEW017CB FEW018TCU BKN160 26/25 Q1012 RETS NOSIG

Cold, rainy weather makes some people emo. Some love rainy days because they can sleep while some love because they can cry inside without getting noticed. rainy = emo?

This past week had been a quick and painless one. With relatively little and small ups and downs. Could see good friends stressed to limits. After reading friend x-ray yankee's blog, could feel her loneliness.

Gosh, when i was doing assignment on weds night, was hearing the DJ on radio saying " first half of 2010 has already passed, have u lived up to your expectations/ new year resolutions?"

Was thinking bout what had happened in the first 6 months of the year. So many things. No doubt life has its up and downs.

Well, what's past has passed and we gotta move on... shall continue onto finding my new "next half year's resolution"

Surface

2010-06-28T21:59:00.000+08:00

Currently feeling confused, i seriously do not know who to believe, who/what is trying to do...

On the surface everyone seems nice, deep inside he/she may have ulterior motives. Like some poeple i never talked to before approaching me for a vote, promising abetter campus etc. After he/she got the post, it seems that he/she has failed to deliver. Should i believe his words?

Perhaps i am a fool to believe what people may have said to me, empty promises being made not not being fulfilled. Everytime hearing a promise someone made, i look forward to it, Similarly when i make a promise, i'll try my best to realise it. 希望越大，失望越大. Perhaps for an impatient person, i always get false hopes. When people apologise for not adhering to a promise, is it a genuine sorry or just something to say to comfort the person?

This what random thoughts i had after watching a drama. No pun nor anyone targetted on the above 2 paragraphs.

It seems that the delta incident has not been fully settled. Have not apologised to charlie hotel and clarified things with him while explaining my stance. Dint know that delta can be so disgusting to...

Just feeling confused from this fake world and need someone to talk to sometimes ............. =(

Betrayal?

2010-06-27T13:34:00.001+08:00

Well, how do you think it was to get betrayed by one enemy and suddenly one friend just got pissed off at me for no reason?? perhaps life's that bad and i am encountering turbulence now. Some form of uncertainity that i feel.. I don't know why..

most issues here and i feel that i should not trust anyone totally, i'd rather be lifeless and stay at hme rather than get hurt by people. People that i used to talk with, now giving me such reaction. I don't know, i feel even H has changed slightly, especially the current situation his gf and me are in... Maybe i should talk lesser to him too, lest he feel the strain and to compromise.

From young i have little/no friends around me.. I felt lonely at times especially weekends. Envied those that had many friends to go out with. After coming to poly i thought things have changed, went out with friends having fun. Now? how i feel? i rather not have friends and live in isolation after so many nonsense, originating from 30/04/10, nothing has been smooth sailing ever since. why does more bad things happen than good? My social circle is really in a mess and i'm seriously seriously astonished as to why am i so unlucky? Friends, do i even have ONE ?? I doubt so, lost many of close friends over the past week. I can only pray hard, and hope for best, nothing i can do to change the current reality.
Perhaps the lot is true...i cant help but cry, but crying is uselesss....

Shall be a lifeless-friendless-saddest guy on earth now....

Amigos Para Siempre

2010-06-26T10:56:00.003+08:00

The problem's bugging me for a week and yet it remains to be solved. She came and forced me to make a decision within 24 hours. If cant reply = no more friends. Yet she still can deny she's not threatening me. What nonsense !??!!

I really don't know how to face both of you after all has happened. You also mentioned about the "direct" incident comparing between you and *** stating why am i unfair. This problem between us happened not only once already and i'm tired of being stuck as the middle guy affecting your relationship. By not talking to you, i believe the benefits outweigh anything else. Am i immature? You kept saying i am selfish but, have you spared a thought for me too? I believe this is the best thing as no such incident will bother me again. I'm tired and busy.

Friends can be made or lost easily, and sometimes losing a good friend could mean more new ones coming up. I wish you can find a better one than me.

Her fb status." I realise that it is no point holding one to such relationship anymore. It makes me feel extremely tired of you and i which that i will not get to you from now on. Gladly see your true colours after this sweet 6 months". That marks the end of our friendship?

First song that "sang" in my mind below. Enjoy..

Amigos para Siempre (You'll Always Be My Friend)

Sarah: I don't have to say

A word to you

You seem to know

Whatever mood

I'm going through

Feels as though

I've known you forever

José :You

Can look into my eyes and see

The way I feel

And how

The world is treating me

Maybe I have known you forever

both : Amigos para siempre

Means you'll always be my friend

Amics per sempre

Means a love that cannot end

Friends for life

Not just a summer or a spring

Amigos para siempre

I feel you near me

Even when we are apart

Just knowing you are in this world

Can warm my heart

Friends for life

Not just a summer or a spring

Amigos para siempre

Sarah: We share memories

I won't forget

And we'll share more,

My friend,

We haven't started yet

Something happens

When we're together

José : When

I look at you

I wonder why

There has to come

A time when we must say goodbye

I'm alive when we are together

both : Amigos para siempre

Means you'll always be my friend

Amics per sempre

Means a love that cannot end

Friends for life

Not just a summer or a spring

Amigos para siempre

I feel you near me

Even when we are apart

Just knowing you are in this world

Can warm my heart

Friends for life

Not just a summer or a spring

Amigos para siempre

José : When

I look at you

I wonder why

There has to come

A time when we must say goodbye

both :I'm alive when we are together

Amigos para siempre

Means you'll always be my friend

Amics per sempre

Means a love that cannot end

Friends for life

Not just a summer or a spring

Amigos para siempre

I feel you near me

Even when we are apart

Just knowing you are in this world

Can warm my heart

Friends for life

Not just a summer or a spring

Amigos para siempre

Amigos para siempre

Means you'll always be my friend

Amics per sempre

Means a love that cannot end

Friends for life

Not just a summer or a spring

Amigos para siempre

Amigos para siempre

(end)

This was the theme song for Barcelona '92 Olympics. And also a special message i wanna put across to friends who read this blog, will always remember you. Amigos para siempre

Love,

Hopeless boy =(

Random: My Love

2010-06-25T23:48:00.001+08:00

This week has been a hectic yet quick week

Weds : loved i-walk, legs felt more sour than lemon on thurs

Thurs: stupid bunch of people in cca that left me out on purpose.. GRR

Handed in airfield systems assignment after worrying. Felt satisfied as i saw the assignment enter Tommy's locker. Went to temple to pray for divination lots with HK asking guidance for health and studies. Movie after that and the day ends. Was already happy/satisfied.. What brightened the remaining day was my love... Did not expect to see you.. =)

(My love <3)

(Interior of my love)

Loved this train since 5 yrs old. Remembered the times when i throw tantrum with my mom, refusing to enter your only sibling just to take the rides from you. You always come unexpectedly, most of the time when i'm alone, the period of time when i feel lonely. I enjoy your ride even if it is just for one stop. Love you how you took me to my destinations, confidently. Always have a feeling that you travel faster than your 2 siblings. . Mood cheers up when i hear your roaring engine, sliding doors.... Your green tinted windows seem to tell me a lot of things.

<3 you =)

<空>

2010-06-22T19:20:00.001+08:00

spate of unfortunate events that happened shortly <5 hours.

shall list all:

Woke up terribly tired

Left home in a rush mode

Discovered forgot to bring matric card

Tried desperately to borrow one

Denied entry

Feeling lonely in the free access lab

Feel tired but nvr worked out!

That perhaps all set my resultant mood for the lesssons in the afternoon. Did not talk much/have no mood.

Was relatively quiet during apadm and atsys lecture.
However, felt like talking to other people during 2nd lecture instead of H. Was sitting beside H in LT, he asked me why was i quiet. Ironically i created quite some noise and finding finding genuine laughter to de stress by talking to Echo and Juliet. Felt hard to answer him directly in his face. I didnt dare talk to him. He stated he wanted to concenetrate in lectures so i talked to them instead. He is still a little in a disappointed mode. When he joined in the convo, talked to him so that he did not feel left out ( clearly he was trying to talk to me while trying to join the other grp left of him with his gf, M,L tough on him). But i'm really afraid i am disturbing you, cus i am clearly a distraction. Sorry for being a little cold today and thanks for your concern.

What even shocked me was that after hearing what Tommy expected for assignment, i sort of know that i've to re-do again. This further devastated my already shattered mood. I'm tired/sick/suicide mode. Walking home, thinking of things, staring here and there. perhaps... perhaps.... perhaps.... i don't know... It's nonsense tuesday today.

Sorry readers, if i made you feel -ve, did not mean to.

PMO

2010-06-21T23:19:00.000+08:00

woken up by stupid nonsensical consortium group of people scream incessantly inconsiderably !!! now left with a head causing extreme pain with no one caring me =X FML

From friends to me to friends

2010-06-21T19:40:00.000+08:00

Received the worst thing students dread when going to lessons today.

Felt i've could done better but still..

I remembered once a friend told me to work hard when i failed horrendously in my last sem. The feeling of dejection, feeling of efforts going down to waste..

This was what he written on his blog " Dedicated to my dear friends: For those who didn't score what you've expected, don't cry over spilled milk. This is what i always tell myself. So hope that you'll have that spirit and conquer the papers! Don't let the opposite happen! "

At that point of time I told myself, to closely model to be like them. Study appropriately, not to be too complacent (most improved last sem!!). At the start of the new academic year, I visualised myself feeling happy getting results, It gave me a feeling of hope. At least there's still time as it is term test only. (previous time mine was main exams!)

I believe in making amends. At least treasure every opportunity for you to maximise your marks, through projects, assignments and class participation. I believe that you will eventually be better on me.

Lets celebrate at fountain of wealth after exams to de stress !

remember, there's always a hotline opened for you@ 94** **39 if u want a listening ear.

In the mean time, smart and/or hard with barouqe music =)

Sunday

2010-06-20T14:45:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow marks a begnning of our new term in poly life. 50% of our poly years left before entering the next phase of our life. Learnt quite some stuff here and there and made some good friends too.

Whats with me? i dont' know? Why am i posting such things? i don't know too

Just feel lonely & possibly bored so i come to blog.. Recently did some personality test and got shockingly accurate results.

Below shows the some of the description in the career advice

"You can’t stand improvisation, short-term changes of plans, and last minute rush. You are a master at organized planning and proceed very purposefully with everything you do. You are driven up the wall if something unforeseen throws your careful calculations into disarray. You want everything within the purview of your responsibility to run smoothly, so that it can be dealt with one after the other. Professional environments where it is impossible to plan from one day to the next, requiring continuous flexibility, are not your thing. You can deal with a sudden adjustment, but please, not too frequently! A daily life in uncertainty, not knowing if you would be able to deliver a performance meeting your high demands, is not for you."

No wonder i got so pissed off/angry yesterday at friends. Love to plan for schedules/things in advance and after weighing options. Last minute things really can cause me to go crazy.

Next is some extract from relationship advice

"In relationships too, Reliable Realists are reliability itself. As partners, they are faithful and consistent, well-balanced and sensible. Security and stability are very important to them. They have little time for extravagances and flightiness. Whoever has them as friend or partner can rely on them for a lifetime. However, it takes quite a while for Reliable Realists to enter into a relationship or friendship. They have little need for social contacts; they therefore take great care when choosing partners and friends and limit themselves to a small but exclusive circle which meets their high demands. They tend to show their closeness to people who are important to them by deeds - their partner should rather not expect romantic declarations of love."

No wonder i'm unattached. Highly likely that i will not meet one. Just a gut feeling. Well, feeling lonely and too much time to spare is not good. Maybe is because of that thus looking or one? That's not healthy too eh? Why am i wondering such nonsense from time to time?

idk...

Off to continue assignment...

Fire Fiery Furious

2010-06-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

:@ grrr..... cant believe my sensitivity towards time was so much. Reaction to that piece of sms.....

And it furthered pissed me off was.....

But why was i angry? rsy, i have already been the one doing coordination of grp members for siince the start of the holidays. I asked group mates a few rounds and we could not find a common date. Now that we have found a common date, he wanna delay it.

Secondly,it shows how much you do not see the project as urgent. Both of you already busy to the max, i was just wanting to meet up earlier so that we could finish it and reduce meeting up again? Why one time and another, you have to be so selfish, wanting to delay just for more of your sleeping time? Why can't you just sacrifice for once?

I do not mind coordinating all these, but it seems that my efforts were not appreciated, people take for granted? No one understood all these because i've been doing these nonsense for the past 2-3 projs.Why must they do this to me? I feel so disappointed too

I shall not be soft hearted and give in.. I WILL GO LATE BY AT LEAST 1 HOUR WITHOUT APOLOGISING

Telephone

2010-06-18T10:14:00.000+08:00

1st thing to blog about in the early morning

cant sleep =X argh insomnia... Its only 8.45 + am (GMT +8) when i woke up and i could feel my body not wanting to sleep further. Woke up half tired. But yesterday's telephone conver withh CD filled my mind. What they said were like ringing in my brain...What they said were very true.

Sometimes when couples care for each other they may care it differently and each party may not feel the "concern". One example they quoted was in terms of food sharing. C is a big eater while D eats like very little. If they were dining together and C offer something to D on his dinner plate, how would D react?

Option A: Not eat C's dinner as he may not feel full after sharing and share with another person (assumining there is)

Option B: Eat with C not to turn down his good offer and make him feel disappointed.

Choosing any option shows how u care, only the way it is done is different and perhaps the feelings for each party may be different too.

Choosing Option A, you just do not want bf to starve because of you wanting to eat just something. Caring isn't it?

On the other hand, choosing option B, no doubt your bf will starve a little, but at least he feels warm & cozy sharing with you.. He will feel happier. Maybe guy may prefer gal to choose this option? Cus the sweetness can make up the lack of food (i need this to diet =P)

More things to continue on..

Continuing on yesterday's feelings when i went out. maybe 80% happy 20% emo.

Actually I did not feel uncomfortable when any pair was doing any intimate stuff, just that i feel lonely, not left out the lonely but no people to be with the lonely. oops

Perhaps, my self esteem and self confidence is low. No one attracted to me & i attracted to no one? Maybe the personality test is so true. Haix, sometimes i really wish i could find someone too.. But I'm lousy..The feeling is even stronger when going out with 2 pairs ! Not say i don't like going out, but sometimes you'd really wish.......

So when i decided to move to the middle of the train, i was only wanting to be alone, emo-ing. Why emo? not to disturb any nice moments. Could see the 2 guys were ready to spring into action. In fact it did the reverse. But at least HA took the initiative to come and not make me feel left out. Thanks so much ! But i've to apologise if i ruined any of your plans.

The worse thing had yet to come.. I felt even worse when in the middle when 2 pairs come. Stuck in the middle of some hugging-kissing-all hugging action. The feeling of lightbulb became even stronger. However, this time i could not escape. Have to bear with it from the kallang - kembangan sector of the train ride. Pressure was bulding up already.

The walk with H to bus stop was a relatively silent one. I was quiet and H was doing most of the talking. I just gave short answers, shorter than willy's hair.

When walking home listened to song- apologise. Almost cried but no feel to continuing to cry. Walking home was an emo one.

BUT IM OK NW =) :D

bye ~~

Thoughts of today

2010-06-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

Felt fun today, found my G2000 !!!!!!!!!! bought belt from Levis !!!!!!!!!!!!!

messages to people i went out

A: Sry if we left u out, we were too boisterous/rowdy. Could tell from your eyes. Maybe you were tired. but i feel it's not so simple. Anyway, enjoy yourself, maybe treat it like orientation camp, u havent break ice... RMB to bring bunsen burner to melt ice nxt time k? throw tomatoes ! gambatte!

CD: thanks for giving me luck. Things go well with you two!!

H: You laugh so loud at macs! I felt embarassed with you. U felt happy? Your eyes were telling a different story too =P .. emo cry with me ok?? i take tissue from ion for you

GOOD LUCK COME !

2010-06-16T00:41:00.001+08:00

the recent spate of suay events has overwhelmed me and cause me to wish good luck to come asap.

Shall briefly mention my suay-ness

1)No affinity with the formal top in G2k, went to 4 outlets g2k but dint buy when i see it in the 1st shop, thinking i will see it again. CMI when I went to the shop again today nvr even see its existence.#4

2)Fall down. Bleeding + injured my joints?... Pain^3

3)Shoes, the nice one at topshop, green grey one, dun have my size T.T

4)$6 shirt, i wanted you but i did not see you today when i saw you yesterday.

5)J*t q**y screw u (buy the vowels please)

6)teeth pain

I welcome you GOOD luck.

things will be fine after tomorrow, on the good side

1)recover from my injury
2)recover and be able to run/build muscle/lose weight more efficiently
3)saved $ for not being able to buy those nonsense i mentioned
4)World has treat me better by giving me chances to take more protein.

5) After hearing the luggage girl enjoying her SIP, i felt happy for a moment. It shows, heaven is fair. Is either u get a glamourous name for SIP and shitty working environment or a not-so-nice SIP title but a working environment having family relationship. I could feel they way she described her internship. No doubt she was disappointed at first, but now seems like/already enjoying it. Maybe as what friends close to me say, need time to heal all wound. Certain things happen and its is how we see it. You can say the +ve side may be deceiving yourselft, but that makes you feel better? definitely !

Significance - no option 5) from suayness, maybe i have more time for other things such as hanging out with friends? more time to build muscles?? hehe... te list goes on and on like the world never stops spinning

Its always easy to do and hard to say. But i promise and try to look at bright things (hmm maybe is because of direct incident i become dimmer and not so bright liao =P)

榴蓮與開心

2010-06-15T01:55:00.000+08:00

吃著榴蓮享受著榴蓮的色香味，感到小小地快樂。竟然能把價錢殺到那麽爽。

和朋友談談天說說地、八卦九卦都沒問題。但是當時的我聊天時感到非常滿足。滿足是身邊有朋友聼聼我說的話。

生活中的瑣碎事也能使我滿足，開心。

爽爽爽，榴蓮最棒。希望本人秉持樂觀態度的心永遠都在。

Physical appearance

2010-06-14T00:48:00.001+08:00

Was asked to blog about contact lens from a reader of this blog =) Had dreamt of having some cool contact lenses to make myself look seemingly cooler - greenish-grey eye colour. Why greenish grey? It has a sense of mysteriousness, like an ocean deep of secrets being kept inside for eternity. On top of the mysteriousness, it seems to exude an aura of confidence and faithfulness. To me, what makes you look sly or honest is the shape of the eye. Eg, no of eyelids, big/small eye.

How i thought humans could choose their favourite shape/figure before they were born. I'd love to have a six pec abs, a lot of muscle whilst being lean and then an ideal height of 183cm, weight must be 65 or less. =) What's your "ideal" weight height shape?

Korea is the best place..

輕鬆多了

2010-06-11T20:32:00.001+08:00

離開了城市的煩囂，享受著生活節奏較慢的小村莊。看著村民生活簡單，過這無憂無慮的生活。我在這裡享受不只是無壓力的時光，還有我喜愛的芒果冰。暫時性地把煩惱抛開。有了空氣新鮮，心情自然好。希望將來的日子能這樣簡單、開心地過 =)

PS: Thanks to the friends who cheered and opened my thoughts, your kind intentions were greatly appreciated!

PTSD

2010-06-09T08:07:00.000+08:00

每次心理上出現問題時，生理上同時也會出現少許（可能也很多）問題。這一次是睡不着，上次、下次會是如何呢？

雖然我對這次的事件感到很意外，表面上失望的是與那份工無緣。若更深一層了解我生氣的原因是他的偏心會造成不受惠的我淪落到一個我非常不喜歡的實習。我是否也會像她，拿到一個冷門的。這才是我最擔心的。世界真的很不公平，多麽渴望在我手中。

朋友X也許能明白我的感受，因爲她的希望同樣也被他毀滅了。她所告訴我的一切都有道理，無可否認。她雖然學業上，人格上有待進步，但是縂覺得她不屈不撓的精神特別強。她也非常珍惜每一個得到的希望。這就是我的弱點。可能就是因爲最近所發生的事，令我累了。或許我自認失敗了。

從失敗中學習，說起來很容易，做起來相反的很難。比如最近朋友向我訴苦，我勸導他的那些話可以運用/形容我現在的不安。真的說真的很容易，做起來很難。朋友倘若你看到這個，請當成我把我所“教”你的道理收回去。縂覺得言行不一致是每個人的弱點，我也不例外。

點解？好事不見得發生在身上，壞事卻接踵而至地發生。到底活著的意義又是什麽？我們所擁有的一切都是注定的嗎？那麽我點還活著受苦，本人相信長痛不如短痛。現在也了解爲何有人選擇跳上地鐵軌道自殺，找一個解脫。原來最痛苦的折磨是心理上的折磨而不是生理上的折磨。

點解，點解？我既沒有先天性的優勢，也沒有後天性的機會與機制。從小羡慕別人的家庭多麽溫暖，自己的有多麽落魄。現在羡慕人家的成績，才華。有些找到生命中的伴侶。我？？？？一無所有。

爲何老天，身旁的人要這樣捉弄我？到底真的有真正的朋友嗎？真的可以信賴嗎？到底誰是真誰是假？假的真的了，但真的假不了嗎？

如果我在這個世界上不存在，我會不會有這樣的痛苦？自殺是否個好圖進？

Will Learn To Be Selfish

2010-06-08T23:25:00.003+08:00

Job offer that was put up for everyone to sign up? Dream on.... Thats so fake of him. That day when ET told me how biased he was, i listened to her with eyes half closed, was thinking what she said might not be so true. However, as of now, i totally believe her. He is BIASED.

When he put up the offer, i felt that there was an opportunity for me to try out the working place, but it seemed that more or less, there was some sort of staging of act. Trying to be biased yet appear to be democratic (what fakeness here). Actually i do know that he is partially biased, but i tried to submit the resume nevertheless. When typing the resume, i felt like i was 打腫臉皮充胖子. On what basis you would compete with other candidates? Some definitely have, while some i still believe is favouritism. Told some friends about my feeling but, guess what they told was just trying to make me feel better. THE UGLY TRUTH IS I HAVE NONE !

In class, pretended to offer, in the end im sure the 3 people must have got it. Friend H definitely will get it because of his talents. So i thought i would have the chance but wait..... This clearly shows it all.

Understood why there was a girl who wanted to help the principal's team insteaed of her own course's team. I understood why she spoke in the sarcastic way just now. i thought she was too crazy. After less than 3 hours i understood. She probably did not get back whatever she put in.

Is this world about staging show? What friend H said was true also, i have to learn to control my mouth, (best is that i shall keep it as shut as possible in future times).

TO think pushing down the camp was a good and that i'll definitely be in.

Nevermind, since you show your fakeness, i shall show mine too, I WILL BE SELFISH LEST I GET HURT AGAIN

LET ME SAY KNNCBCFCUK FOR ONE K?

Loves to eat steamboat

2010-06-05T11:46:00.004+08:00

Get High !

2010-06-04T00:52:00.000+08:00

Seeing a gd friend depressed makes me wonder what's happiness in life too. To me happiness = talk cock like when going out with chewy. Thats one of the rare outings that i totally, momentarily forget all the pain and misery that i may have encountered before. She so high!

Anw another high sporting activity today - cycling. one of my favourite past time activity is this ! adrenaline rush after cycling feels so great. and when u reach your destination, you will feeel very accompised. Had fun with 2 friends today during the night cycling. =)

Lets wish life stays like that where happiness will last forever, into eternity... Wish all my friends stay happy too
Saw a quote on an mrt train " some pursue happiness, some choose to create it" If you see friends around not happy, do make an effort to make them happy k ? =) seeya !

INspired/ENlightened

2010-06-02T00:03:00.000+08:00

Felt very high + inspired today, after going to food expo =)
Thanks, you 2 made me overcome my phobia!
And thanks, both taught/remended me of what basic humans communicate and want to hear, which the radio programme 2 years ago taught me to.

It is HOW you want to communicate your ideas across for the other party to hear.

Take a mother being angry at a child for not studying.

Question: Which method you prefer for mom "educating" the child

Method 1 : Caning child until child studies , mom repeatedly say " I AM ANGRY"
Method 2; Mom shares about her past experience for not studying well enough, showing negative consequences

Definitely method 2 right? Both example clearly state that the mom cares for the child, only how the child wanna acccept. I am sure all humans (unless you are really nuts) love the softer approach.
Sometimes you have to be direct, while sometimes you have to think from the next person's point of view. Solution? Find a balance, best is to try to bring out both things at a go. this not only achieves a win-win situation, but also allows the other party to realise their mistakes while not being hurt (isn't that great?)

For example if a person asks you a question, DO NOT reply no immediately, try to maybe agree with him so that he does not build his wall of defence against you and rebutt you asap. Conversely if you agree with him first and then give some opinions, the chances of accepting is relatively high.. This also shows HOW you deliver a message is important.

So ya, hope my readers learnt something when reading my blog and feel free to comment if you would like to. i acccept criticism.. =)

Song again...

2010-06-01T12:50:00.001+08:00

Recently like to share song + lyrics on my blog. Maybe its how me or people around me feel like the song.

To me this song is like showing a guy's effort being put to waste. GF/Wife too unappreciative? He put in a lot of effort & probably heartbroken ! I've been too emotional these days, probably myself and/or.....too much drama???

Click here for song

张宇 - 用心良苦

你的脸有几分憔悴

你的眼有残留的泪

你的唇美丽中有疲惫

我用去整夜的时间

想分辨在你我之间

到底谁会爱谁多一点

我宁愿看著你

睡得如此沉静

胜过你醒时决裂般无情

你说你想要逃

偏偏注定要落脚

情灭了爱熄了

剩下空心要不要

春已走花又落

用心良苦却成空

我的痛怎么形容

一生爱错放你的手

(music)

你的脸有几分憔悴

你的眼有残留的泪

你的唇美丽中有疲惫

我用去整夜的时间

想分辨在你我之间

到底谁会爱谁多一点

我宁愿看著你

睡得如此沉静

胜过你醒时决裂般无情

你说你想要逃

偏偏注定要落脚

情灭了爱熄了

剩下空心要不要

春已走花又落

用心良苦却成空

我的痛怎么形容

一生爱错放你的手

(music)

你说你想要逃

偏偏注定要落脚

情灭了爱熄了

剩下空心要不要

春已走花又落

用心良苦却成空

我的痛怎么形容

一生爱错放你的手

你说你想要逃

偏偏注定要落脚

情灭了爱熄了

剩下空心要不要

春已走花又落

用心良苦却成空

我的痛怎么形容

一生爱错放你的手

我的痛怎么形容

一生爱错放你的手

Touching scene from a TVB drama-老公万岁

2010-05-31T18:11:00.001+08:00

(listen WITH audio ON)

Almost cried when i saw the woman having the dejected look while being daring enough to express her feelings towards an attached guy. I somehow could empathise her feelings, her pain, misery she had to go through before doing all these. Although it is just a drama, the her feeling seemed so real. Someone somehow must have felt this before when they are trying to fight for their loved... The feeling of dejectedly being rejected...

(Sorry for the quality as it was recorded from my phone. Taken from TVB dvd 老公万岁 ep 14)

Cut Cut Cut ~~

2010-05-30T23:00:00.002+08:00

This is my to cut list for the coming holidays :

Must cut daily expenditure, saving more $ for outings =)
Must cut 3kg
Must buy offer needed items in GSS, where price are cut
Most importantly, cut off ties with ..........................................................

放手

A song to let you hear how i am feeling at this point ! Click here

Lyrics here :

林峰- 爱不疚

收藏在眼眸常徘徊左右爱猜到没有

愉快玩笑后能全然退后你开心就够

这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够

假使讲了你听到后或会走

这种恋爱太罕有不须真正拥有

成全衷心祝福然后就放手

放手放开所有彼此更自由

放手其实我绝非爱得不够

放手豁出所有还有这个好友

已经已经足够

遥远是宇宙静静在背后去看守就够

这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够

即使一刹有过冲动挽你手

这种恋爱太罕有不须真正拥有

成全多舍不得仍然是放手

放手放开所有彼此更自由

放手其实我绝非爱得不够

放手豁出所有还有这个好友

已经已经足够

放手我的牵挂找不到尽头

放手期望你幸福甚麽都有

也许爱很深厚然而我早看得透

放手至可拥有

Fear

2010-05-29T16:18:00.000+08:00

How grandma treated me recently made feel feel scared. She has been using various opportunities to give me money, why did i say weird is that she said she cant give me money for long, so just take when i have the chance. I her expression, the feeling i could feel it. It happened again just now.

Yesterday night she was writhing in pain, agony as her cheeks swelled. The more scary thing was that she was sleeping on the chair in the afternoon just now. I ztood beside her, calling her 4 times, but there was no response. At the point of time, i was thinking, what if... I felt so lost,helpless and dumbfounded for that second. What if she really could not wake up...??? I rolled her up after that.. My mood began to swing like a pendulum

Apologies !

2010-05-28T10:19:00.002+08:00

Apologies to my friends around me whom i made them unhappy because of my unhappiness. Very sorry i affected you in one way or another. Too many things happened and i really cant take it.In summary, the whole of past week i would say is truely a sad, angry, disappointed one. I may not have told anyone but i could feel the emotions myself.

To one friend: i felt disappointed in you. But i couldnt bring myself to forgive you..It so instinctively part of me. Because of that I tried to talk less to you,felt a little betrayed. To me though the incident was small, it showed the character you had, the bad side. What another another friends has told me about you.The anger, resentment. Hope time can heal all wounds. Sorry for being so extreme !

To H: I'm really sorry and was selfish that i did not spare a thought for you. I was looking emo while you yourself also don't feel that high, trying to cheer me up. I feel bad. Just wanna tell you many things happened recently and some things aren't that convenient to tell you in a way or another especially in other's presence. Lets gear up for term test and pass with flying colours ok? =)

Another friend: Sorry that i indirectly made you cry yesterday night. I thought you recovered already. I was very shocked, embarrased and felt so helpless when you just decided to break down in front of me. Seeing you 2 crying together made me the feeling even worse. I could do nothing except to listen to your sorrows, not knowing how to help you as i do not have experience myself.All i could do was just to think from his point of view and told you. However, all human beings learn their mistakes from dire consequences and i believe you are in the process of learning some new things, though the truth/process really hurts. Maybe this is what all relationships have to go through, a test of its own steength. Hope there's light at the end of tunnel. Cheer up k? =)

I had a relative v close to my grandma and she passed away recently. Seeing my grandma very emo recently. They way she spoke when we mentioned about the relative. They spent many years together and one would take care of household chores, one would take care of meals. So when my mom told her where the tomb would be placed at my grandma asked about the price of one tomb, ~$3800. She has been thinking a lot recently like friend H, ypical virgo.. My only guess was that she was preparing $ to buy one as she was thinking of the location. Her face was deep in contemplation, as if weighing the pros and cons of setting up one. All i could do was attempting to make the atmosphere less tense and ask her if i should set one up too. Her face, her tone, guess she was preparing for her day to come.. i could feel it although she ddid not explicitly say it out. Although sometimes i really wished she dint existed, but somehow or another, i was brought up by her... i shall stop herre, i cant help but my tears just keep rolling down when i type this post, uncontrollably...

Me

2010-05-26T19:02:00.001+08:00

Many things recently..

What had caused this irritation? perhaps main culprit was severe lack of sleep which resulted in a mini depression + someone somewhere out there

There are still some things bothering me but i think i should not type here, lest i hurt anyone..

Word of caution, do not assume things sometimes.. Assume = make an ASS out of U & ME.. which i totally agree. assumptions may lead to conflict. If someone wants to ask someone something, try to ask the someone directly instead of through a third party, it shows your sincerity and truthfulness.

Example if u had promised someone or asked someone out, u should remind him/her, instead of assuming he/she will turn up and/or him/her waiting for at least a reminder.. The reminder should be from you instead of some 3rd party! I hate the process of waiting for a reminder and also do not like to take first step to ask people about things, thats me =)

三人行必有我師焉

2010-05-23T09:42:00.000+08:00

Perhaps this was what i felt partially yesterday (description in sng lyrics below). Shall not say the other part.

仨人

By : 郭靜&范瑋琪&張韶涵

一个人的晚餐无聊寂寞

两个朋友能开心的直说

三个人可以给你勇气

可以安慰你的失落

异口同声地说

因为有你染上新的幽默

（新的幽默）

也因为有你世界变得轻松

（变得轻松）

我们能相遇非常难得

所以尽情大声唱歌

分享每一分钟

我们拥有一个真心的朋友

（我们是真心的朋友）

就算有风吹不走我们感动

（吹不走我们的感动）

真的希望你能够永远快乐

你懂我（你懂我）不用说（不用说）

最想看见彼此的笑容

hey yeah~~如果]（你带走乌云的天空）

能够带走乌云的天空

爬到云端我陪你继续做梦

（爬到云端我陪你做梦）

好想每天陪你看日出日落

你值得交换我

你值得交换我

2010-05-17T23:17:00.000+08:00

~~Ridiculous people bombing ridiculous question when they themselves have such ridiculous presentation call them FN. Seriously pity the group presenting to them. What had they done to deserve this?~~

Put aside that, one of the funniest day went through recently after the so much whatever nonsense that bugged me.

Got a haircut yesterday and the effect was like so obvious. Some laughed while some compimented. Felt happy after cutting as i did a daring thing. i dint kknow i'll end up like this but nonetheless, thanks for the compliment/insult.. Now looking forward to the next haircut =)

Next went out with 2 friends today. First time going out with her after knowing who she is. Ramen play's food was nice. I hate sze chuan ramen while him & her ate (i also dunno what is the name, go see my fb if u interested =P). Camwhored crazily inside the shop.

Next we went opposite ramen play to some dessert shop to eat. That was where all the FUNNY moments began.People who ordeered 哈密瓜西米露, 杨枝甘露 was not in the limelight. It all started with someone emo-ing after wanting to order something called 蛋花玉米馬蹄露。Was expecting it to be special/exotic at first, but in the end... HEHEHHEHEHEHEHEH.. First impression already failed us as it was slightly lesser in volume. Add on to that a bowl of diluted 蛋花玉米馬蹄露 = an angry emo-ing guy that felted cheated of his money. To prevent him from feeling cheated, we offered him 哈密瓜西米露 and 杨枝甘露. When he tasted them, his heart felt even more painful, as if he got knocked by willy's keychain like how he knocked the OHP. ( i pity him seriously ).

SO we end up finding the name of the dessert - 蛋花玉米馬蹄露 funny and laughed non stop. First biting the spoon in front of camera and when the magic words come (蛋花玉米馬蹄露) you are filmed ! unglam shots no 1 .Secondly, we just laughed, laughed laughed before changing some lyrics of popular song into 蛋花玉米馬蹄露 !.. hahaha.

The day ended with roof top garden and the stairway to hell =) nice day actually luv it.

Start of another +ve day (soon)

2010-05-13T23:50:00.002+08:00

started today with bad mood apparently at someone whom i felt selfish and actions disappointed. Face rather black i should say.

then LAB session was worst. Apparently Lecturer missed me out from ALL the activities he was going through, felt left out + lonely + sad + bored with a tinge of sleepiness. I didn't understand why would people even got to enjoyed it.

These 2 were my -ves for today

as for +ve, class outing was fun, played some childhood games and felt satisfied. At least it "neutralised" mood back to neutral.. =.="

Needs more of +ve events happen !!

2010-05-12T14:37:00.001+08:00

how am i feeling to day? pissed? sad? lonely? tired? unhappy? negative?

Firstly horrendous sleep quality, disrupted 3 times daily, what a day to even end/start with @*#&*$@&*$@&

Secondly boredom during lessons. nothing to say liao lor.. bored till sad as..........(guess yourselves)

i think i know how the friend felt the other day. A********. the feeling was so not nice. Hmm when going out with him & her, he sometimes may feel this way too, maybe i got to taste my own "karma"

Lessons to learn:
Acknowledge one's presence no matter how silent he/she is...

<3 the cheesecake that made me happy instantly ~!

need +ve things to happen to friends =)

2010-05-11T10:32:00.001+08:00

Just received an sms from a fewllo CCA mate stating that another CCA mate's fatehr had just passed away.. OMG, was shocked again, like the time i felt when another friend's mother passed away. It just rang upon my mind and imagine a life without one of your parents.

Adding on to the shock was that my mood wasnt that good, possibly due to the severe lack of sleep i was experiencing <7 hrs daily for the pass 4-5 nights. Feeling partially sick but i don't know if i can still continue on. Term tests, assignments. So the smsasked to meet up and console him. But what can i really do when i see him? To me it is really hard to console as he is not very close to me, furthermore, i feel it will add on to my mood. If we really meet up tonight and chat, I'll definitely have less time to sleep possibly <6 hours as tomorrow's lessons will start at 8am and I cannot afford to be late.

When i read friend WK's blog, i felt so sad for her also.I do not really come in contact with her, from her blog post i could feel that she was feeling very bad and needed someone to talk to. I just did not know how to console her especially through the means of blog. Moreover, she is an early sleeper so I am also afraid that i reduce her sleep time drastically.

I am not blaming anyone for anything, but i feel that the world around me is sort of in a stressed/sad/angry/negative atmosphere now. What was the most recent thing i did that made me feel happy? Perhaps was yesterday's run . During the run we really talk cock/sing/did weird things. But i could feel that one of them was troubled, perhaps the facial expression and walking speed. He denied it but told me eventually. Maybe it is also good for him to let out some of his ultra deep stress that he would not even mention to many people, like an undersea volcant, he is constantly storing pressure within. Just afraid that he may reach his breaking point sooner or later, a catastrophe may occur as a result. Hope at least SOME of the pressure within him has been let off.

But just that all of these came in a hectic way, stacked together, so i really really just don't know how to react. Its too sudden. Just wish POSITIVE things happen around the friends I am around with =)

A piece of music you should listen to when u see this post http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AsRUpbwvhhc
Peaceful, nice lovely song..

GAMBETTE PPL !!!

Neutralisation

2010-05-11T00:35:00.001+08:00

high - low - avg mood

really admire how strong this friend is. And i finally understand why some ppl decide to end their lives, to escape from stress. Why is the world so weird. It runs by firstly money, then inter-personal relationship. What i mean by that, like u turn up for an event just for show, to show your face and to the people whom are concerned with the event that you give a damn about it. And what if u dun show up/have poor inter-personal relationship? u get kicked out and then no one will remember you even if u have made any significant contributions to the society. Like how the mess on mrt tracks are cleared and disposed of?

Next family problems that includes the two problems above are the worst. Haix, nth to say as i do not have the rights to comment on even my own family as i am not mature enough to do so. Are we a by-product of rapid urbanisation which has so much side effects?

No doubt we live in comfort, but has out emotional needs been fulfilled? Can we work for happiness like we work for money?

FRIEND, we will be here for you. If you really feel sad/stressed up, tell us.. Although we may not be of much help, but hope your steam can be released appropriately, lest u end up on mrt track :P

Unluckiest/Lukiest Person on Earth

2010-05-09T08:13:00.002+08:00

AS of 8.02am on MOther's day, (th May 2010, I hereby declare my self in a state of PAN PAN PAN PAN PAN PAN. Seriously what's the world coming on to? Why am i so lucky to go through the cyclic nature of the aviation business in terms of mood? Why am i always the one who gets hit? Am i really interefering in everyone;s life too much, nagging too much and perhaps even giving impression that i DUN CARE for them? Seriously i really needa break like you do. 3 times in 3 weeks is seriously ridiculous i would call it.

Maybe he is just too stressed till breaking point. But AM I THAT DETESTED by many, and, those around me really my friends? I really really begoining NOT TO TRUST and thing around me. Is what everyon etelling me the truth or just putting on a mask on the face like Lady GaGa's poker face? I seriously cant control my emotions anymore and i REALLY feel like a puppet. Well, i don;t know why but my eyes just became wet while typing this post. Cant control but why cry over such incidents? I really dont know

Whats the point of apologising after slapping someone in the face? Does it help? I feel so sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad.......... I'd rather things stay the same and not better lest i get hurt infinite times, once every week to be exact i really really realllly wish that someone could be my listening ears sometimes... AM I SERIOUSLY ASKING TOO MUCH?

I seriously seriously am tired of all such nonsense and being a toy, being stuck inbetween couples or being ranted at, PLease GIVE me a break all of you.... i really need one. Breaking point doesnt give you the special rights to come and hurt someone and apologising after that.

Ans apologies again if my points are repeated but if u do not like it just exit, dont complain. But if u do really find it nagge please call me up and screw me/ scold me / hit me. At the minimum after reading this send me a flower bridge sms please. Your kindness will be deeply appreciated.

i feeel really numb as of 8.12am UTC + 8, 09 May 2010.

Reasonsfor confusion-ism

2010-05-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

Didn't know a seat can mean so much to him..Maybe perception, we are particular about different things. To him, a seat means friendship, form of trust and responsibility.. and because of that he was just disappointed as it really accidentally hapened twice. (oops..)

For example i am very particular about sincerity and tone of voice when talking. It'll set a lot of anger if u come up and borrow things but saying it in a demanding way. that'll really piss me off. A classmate did that to me yest and i was angry at the moment. Pointed my middle finger at him and made me reluctant to lend anymore stuff to him. (argh, must learn not to be so vulgar....)

Hope everything turns out fine ! :D

K

2010-05-07T22:22:00.000+08:00

K was ok.. but felt boring after the session ended like walking with them felt ultra bored. dint know if i made the correct choice to K. Would describe the day like a unhappy quadratic curve.

Question to ponder

2010-05-07T09:42:00.000+08:00

After receiving a scary phone call from a friend i was shocked. A few questions were ringing in my mind when i was asleep. Quality of sleep was DEFINITELY affected. These were the questions that "bothered" me.

Are you helpful when u help people and expect them to return you the favour? You complain to people something yet you are not taking the initiative to contact them however, blame them instead? Can people who joke at people be prepared to be joked at?

RUBBISH!

complicated

2010-05-05T21:34:00.002+08:00

unexpected weird awkward shocked unbelievable !

scariest person ever seen !

塵埃落地, when the dust settles

2010-05-03T23:07:00.001+08:00

Glad this crisis is almost over. But there's still some recovery work here. Currently still suffering from &^@&^#@&-TangoEchoOscar-phobia. However, for every situation that happens there are bound to be of good learning points. Maybe I was too insistent, stubborn.

Learning points

Talking verbally and sharing your thoughts are important; its better to talk things out rather than sms
Must learn to forgive & forget (thats my major weakness)
Follow situation instead of "what if", totally makes ppl emo
Dun be too !!@ with attached ppl, there is a limit and aknowleding the other party's presence?
Say probs once nia
Good friends ever ready to help.

But i would also like to apologise for my possible horrendous attitude to the 2 affected parties. Help me recover from the &%5E@&%5E#@&-TangoEchoOscar-phobia k??? :P

後續。

2010-05-01T13:20:00.000+08:00

看來我也是該檢討檢討自己。每當我問身邊人到底“click too well with girls” 是compliment還是insult。通常他們都會這樣回復“maybe its not too good”

this problem has been seriously bugging me and the current situation now has shown the adverse consequences.. i really really don't know if i should really change or what. It had made me realise the severity of clicking too well with girls. Ironically, thats me.. so i really really really dont know how to behave when i go to school. It is seriously tiring to act in front. Should i really talk less?? Maybe i shall try one day

Moreover, I really really don't know how to face them when school opens. It'll be weird to act as if nothing has happened. Furthermore i feel that the friendship has somehow changed. Perhaps it is like glass, once broken, no matter how hard you try to piece them back together, the cracks will forever remain. I wonder wonder... It'll seriously awkward to be speaking to friend A & B when they sitting together.

Writing this entry still has not solved the cause of the problem... I feeeeeeel so helplesssssss

亂？

2010-04-30T00:47:00.001+08:00

亂，亂亂亂，亂亂亂亂。。沒生活，無人可以傾訴，到底活著的意義何處呢？什麽是生命的真諦？

我可能潛意識裏太過分了？已經踏出界限了呢？還是性格讓人真的無法忍受？
從小到大身邊的人縂會來來去去，雖然表面上都有招呼的笑笑，但未有一個真正的有難同儅的。

天有不測風雲、人有旦夕禍福。看來很多人都說是我性格上有問題。我真的得改嗎？如果我改會是我真正的自己嗎？不喜歡帶著面具與人溝通。

見面時我肯定會感到尷尬。

如果真的讓你非常不開心的是我，我寧願別把自己快樂建立在別人的痛苦，不如....

朋友真的對不起你！希望能繼續做你朋友！

鬼畫符

2010-04-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

真的真的好久沒有用手寫字。只能用倆個字形容-難看。再加上我的華文程度掉了許多。啊哈，真的感到吃驚。現在真的知道什麽是聰明反被聰明誤。

2010-04-25T13:15:00.000+08:00

變、亂、。昨天看到了人可以這麽樣虛假，明明很怨憤但又在別人面前顯得十分開心。是他們情緒變化快嗎、還是是我老眼昏花呢？人點會這樣？

可能係近心裏面的火大。

與朋友A說出我心里困擾著我的問題之後確實感到輕鬆，但係縂感到真正后果即將來臨。他說他會與朋友B說清楚。我縂覺得中間A與B講的時候可能講錯。或許B還沒聽到我想太多了。

但心裏覺得B知道了又可能恨透了我。說出自己感受有錯嗎？

真的很希望能親自與B傾清楚。B如果你看到的話A對你說的是我真心話的感受，但又不可能在她面前說。

Empty

2010-04-21T17:00:00.000+08:00

feeling empty recently no matter where i am.. Although i may seem to be happy on the surface, but actually im not really feeling joyous.
"时而开心，又不是很开心；多数的时间都在怨，却不知道不开心什么不要问我为什么，因为我知道的话就不会烦恼了" (http://purelypure.blogspot.com/)

New Beginning 2.1

2010-04-19T09:56:00.000+08:00

sorry for not updating my blog recently, really nothing (no new food reviews) to post.

Let me talk about the pass weekend. It had been a funny one :D

Went school to settle camp things on saturday and then crazily went to airport with H&A. Seriously, why everytime do i buy food when i go out with them?? TO sidetrack a littlem there's actaully a mini Taiwan fair in NTUC T3 selling Taiwan food products such as mochi and green tea cake. The mochi is strongly reccomended as the fragrance lingers in the mouth even after you have swallowed it whole

H says he prefers oolong. A loves yam. I like black sesame !

IT retails in a big packet at $4.90. Its strongly recommended if you are a fan of mochi from Taiwan :D

As for sunday. Training as usual in the morning. But we learnt many locks today.. From ikkyo to nikko before going to sankyo. First time being asked to go up and being used as a"specimen" for nikkyo. Guessed it made me high during that training. In fact, the nikkyo wasnt pain but the baby lock was... THen there was a weird lock involving hanging someone in a semi shiho-nage position but it was potentially more dangerous one ans the hand will break if care is not exercised.

Went to jog before jogging 10 rounds around the stadium at an ultra slow pace.I did not felt extremely tired though, maybe a mental block was inside me normally, telling myself i cant run that far.. I should train more often ! After that went hunting for business shoes with P before having dinner and going home...

BYE HOLIDAYS ~~~ Hope you come and visit me again ! ~~

Even more confused..

2010-04-12T11:50:00.001+08:00

Happy mixed with weird feelings recently.... Being an object that gives off light isnt great bt enjoyed the time together.

?

2010-04-09T09:18:00.000+08:00

weird day with mixed feelings..Confused + happy = ?

Went for training as usual. Was asked if i wanted to go to the chalet but i refused at first. However, after the extra training during the gossip session (although i felt a little left out) i felt that the people had shared a close bond. Sitting in the gossip session made me feel as if i were part of them which made me wanting to join the chalet in the end.The feeling was stronger then i chatted with C at the bus stop.. Maybe it'll be a fun one.. =)

The bad news... There is a possibility of the next struggle in the same place.. Haix why the world revolves round in politics/revenge/resentment. Apparently I heard both sides of the story but i don't know who's in the right/wrong..Hope this misunderstanding will clear.

WORST Bak Kut Teh ever

2010-04-07T20:34:00.000+08:00

Had the worst bak kut teh yesterday. A stall located in a place where people have their chalet party located in the east of the Island of Singapore.

While it did not look indecent, unfortunately the taste was. It tasted as if it was pepper soup boiled with pork ribs. Where is the tea? The first spoon of soup caused me to cough uncontrollably, even before i swallowed it. The next few spoonful of the soup, ladened with pepper, brings engulfing warmth of extreme uncomfortability to my throat.

Why this stall can even survive in Singapore? Its really a total insult to our local delicacy.

Location: East Of Singapore
Price: $5 (equivilant of throwing your money into the sea)
Rating:0/10(caused me to have sore throat today)

Good day

2010-04-05T23:55:00.011+08:00

Was bowling with H&M in the morning. Bowled 2 rounds and then off to H's hse. M dint go as he had things to settle for his BKK trip.

H's house was as usual eniticing, as if an invisible hand that existed, trying to pull u inside, allowing one to savour the sumptous meal lying on his dinner table.

Today's menu: steamed white chicken, duck in soya sauce, prawn fried with chinese leek, tau kwa, chicken curry & H's grandma speciality, hard boiled egg with pork in soya sauce, a rice kueh..

Stomach was totally filled to the brim in his house... really thank his grandma for giving me the rice kueh, i appreciate it !

FOOOOOOD

2010-04-04T00:11:00.000+08:00

Today had been a foodful day. Let the pictures do the talking !

The picture above shows a packet of chilled soba that is in a pocketable size. First time seeing it here in Singapore, quite a creative one. It sells for 80 cents for a packet of soba, thereby ingredients such as octopus, cuttlefish can be added at additional 80 cents per type. It makes a wonderful snack as the portion is not too large while allowing us to have more alternative snacks. Rather than just plain curry puff, roti prata. Noodle was really served cold with the octopus.

It is really value for money as you can taste the chilli octopus at 80 cents which is very rare.

Reccomended: Octopus with soba (costs $1.60)
Location: Bugis street level 2

Yee Shun Milk Co

2010-04-01T15:19:00.000+08:00

Was in Hong Kong for a holiday recently. I'll be blogging about some food i've eaten in a typical cafe there.

This is my favourite place to have supper in, Yee Shun Milk Co. It is a chain of cafe in Hong Kong. The branch i went was located in Mongkok, near Prince Edward MTR in Sai Yeung Choi Street South.

Recommended to try items are displayed below:

Steamed milk. You can choose from different types of flavour. You can select from ginger juice, almond, chocolate.

Beef sandwich with eggs. Meat was tender.

Papaya blended with fresh milk into a smoothie form.

This is the mango with milk smoothie variant.

The milk used was very fresh.

Above are the must try when you visit Yee Shun Milk Co in Hong Kong. However, do note that the prices are a little above average for Hong Kong standards but not as pricey as you would pay for a Hong Kong style meal in Singapore.

Food at bugis

2010-03-23T22:13:00.000+08:00

Pomelo with mango & sago seeds

Was not fragrant enough and then too sweet. The sweetness masked the fragrance of the dessert. Maybe its a way of cutting cost as sugar is reletively cheap to add, supposedly enhance the flavour. However, it obviously failed. Pomelo bits was a little too bitter and mango cubes were not big enough. The cost was not well justified for the quality

Cost: $3.80/bowl

Location: A food court at bugis junction

Rating: 5/10 (loses marks because of unfresh pomelo and little fragrance)

Sin Hoi Shan Chicken Rice

Portion of rice was too small. It was obviously half a bowl worth of rice. They still said it was a 1 PERSON SET. The fragrance was normal, but not special. It is hard to differenciate it from other chicken rice stalls.

As for the chicken, insufficient proportion of sesame oil and soy sauce was added. This caused the chicken meat to be of less taste and fragrance. The chicken meat was a little overcooked and was not tender.

Cost cutting measures of the shop was so severe that it affected the quality of food. From the portion of the rice and the amount of sauce added to the chicken meat that affected the taste. Do think twice before visiting.

Cost: $3.50 1 person set meal

Location: Bras Basah

Rating: 4/10 (-6 for cost cutting that was so severe the food was not very palatable)

雙喜臨門

2010-03-22T23:59:00.002+08:00

2 first times today...

First time received a gift from a friend. First time celebrated birthday with my friends. Felt so shocked. First and last 18th birthday .. A wonderful one to start with

First Surprise

Received this post it pad from a friend. She mailed it to me!!! So suprised that someone even remembered my birthday. That's so nice of her. Although i do not really talk to her currently will remember as a friend for life.

Surprise No 2

Received a call from a 2 friends to reach Vivo in 40 mins. Phew, lucky i made it more or less in time. Off we took the Sentosa whatever thing to cross into Sentosa. Have not been there for at least 12 years. Last time i went, there was a water theme park that existed and an attraction called volcano land. I also had no impression of siloso beach, so i assumed i did not went there

Although the time spent there was just over 2 hours, i enjoyed the surprise the 2 friends gave me- a slice of birthday cake (image below). Really appreciated their thoughts and also felt a little 不好意思.

Cake was from Hard Rock Cafe at Universal Studios.

We ate a total of 2 slices of cakes. One was cheesecake the other was frosty carrot cake. For your information , the carrot cake is not those that are found in hawker centre, they are really cakes that have carrot slices in them topped with a layer of icing cream.

The cheesecake was not too heavy. Felt light while being strong in flavour. The base was crispy while not being too oily. In addition, the cheese wasnt too viscous. It felt semi solid-liquid

As for carrotcake, it tasted like a hybrid cake. A combination of kueh lapis and fruit cake combined into one. It did not taste too sweet nor oily. It had the fragrance of banana to it that seem to make one addicted to it.

(Pic of my birthday cheese cake)

(Picture showing some of the cakes hard rock cafe sells. Top right hand corner of the picture shows the carrot cake)

Thanks so much the 2 friends + weike =)

Brown, here i receive you

2010-03-20T23:26:00.001+08:00

Finally, conquered my fear of blue-gold grading and managed to pass this stage.

Coming to think of it, i have already joined aikido for almost a year.

From the start when we barely learnt how to roll till the point we learnt how to slam, aikido has been a part of my life since the poly days started.What was tested : shiwari wazza (ikkyo-yonkyo), kotegaeshi, irimi nage, shiho nage, kotegaeishi, tenchi nage, juji-garami,.. etc.

Today's grading was ok, not too perfect in the sense that i fumbled when i was the nage. Techniques that i fumbled included juji-garami, gyaku-hanmi kotegaeshi

Overall was tiring as we had 3 rounds of free exercise. First one with Norman was lucky in the sense that he did not slam me. Next was Yong Xin, she did some slamm but wass still acceptable. Next Parry. He did some weird teachiniques on me which i did not really know how to slam with. Manage to scrape through with sensei's advice : Follow the flow

Aikido taught me the meaning of peserverence. Frankly speaking, i hought of quitting aikido when weIarea, knee injuries etc..) But what pushed me on was that if ppl can do it, why cant i? Thus indirectly training up my self confidence (although i still severely lack of it).

Video below is an example of a slam

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Shin Tokyo

2010-03-19T00:03:00.001+08:00

Location: Century Sq

Items Tried: Tom Yam Ramen, Mochi with ice cream

Its a H restaurant, so cant expect much authentic Jap food and most recipes were mostly modified(presumed)*

Ramen served in tom yam soup with the typical ramen smell. There were some clams, crabsticks, eggs, prawns and then mussel present.

Soup base felt refreshing but it lacked of a key ingredient which is common in most ramen. The refreshing faded almost instantly when the soup was swallowed, guess they used some instant powder..

Texture of the seafood items were reasonable, being succulent. The freshness of seafood was average but did not feel sweet either.

Ramen was Q enough, but i'd prefer a Q-er type.

Not very value for money but the price of the ramen is understandable due to the more "expensive" ingredients used.

Price: $12.90++
Rating: 7/10 ( -1 for price, -2 for the lack of lingering fragrance of soup base in mouth)

A scoup of green tea of ice cream seated on 4 lychee flavoured mochi on top of ultra viscous red bean paste.

Green tea ice cream did have some taste of green tea. However, the smell of green tea was not strong enough and then the milky flavour was slightly more overpowering. Definitely lose to the hokkaido ice cream which had a strong bitter aftertaste (this is then really called greed tea flavour K??)

The lychee felt very factory made and artificial. Tasted more like lychee concentrate in an ultra thin layer of skin, which did not have much texture to it also.

Price: almost $6++
Rating: 6/10 (-2 for artifcially flavoured mochi, -2 for the nt so high grade of ice cream)

bored + nt very gd mood

2010-03-18T23:26:00.000+08:00

Went to visit a sick classmate just now to celebrate his bday... Happy Birthday R.

However, it did not turned out to be happy for me at all. The in charge of the event said to meet at 10.30. On the contrary, we had to wait for the person in charge of the event as one bunch of them were late. So, H, J, JR & T were waiting for at least 50 mins for the event. (My first unhappiness)

After meeting up, we were not told of what to do and did even more waiting to wait for the ward to be ready and prepare/consolidate the gifts everyone bought for the classmate. Wasted AT LEAST 2 hrs, sitting down there idling, not knowing on what to do. Was ultra bored and still did not recover from the first event that happened. (2nd unhappiness).

Was i expecting too much? How can the event in charge ask ppl to meet at 1030 and then come at 1130? And then he wasnt doing much things also, wasting our precious life just like that?? Horrendous

Is that the trend nowdays to be ULTRA LATE? Horrendous group of people, will try to ALWAYS come late for whatever outings u all organise (if u ever do and i decide to go)

On the bright side, M said he found T to be a nice guy, which i also agree with him (M). T was easy going & it was the rare times that i get to speak to it (we do not speak in class too often.

Random but true facts/jokes/irony??..

2010-03-18T11:34:00.000+08:00

Went to search for random stuff and found some at a China blog.
Enjoy!
1.钻石恒久远，一颗就破产~~

2. 水能载舟，亦能煮粥

3.黑夜给了我黑色的眼睛，我却用它翻白眼

4.不怕虎一样的敌人，就怕猪一样的队友 !

5.满城尽待年终奖，弄弄才是喇叭腔

6. 一山不能容二虎,除非一公和一母!

7.我假装认真地工作,老板假装认真地付薪水

8.拍脑袋决策，拍胸脯保证，拍屁股走人

9.每天早上起床都要看一遍《福布斯》富翁排行榜，如果上面没有我的名字，我就去上班 ……

10.我一个不久前结婚的男同学叫----常在厨房混，哪能不切手

11.老虎不发威，当我HelloKitty 啊

12. 学问之美，在于使人一头雾水；诗歌之美，在于煽动男女出轨；女人之美，在于蠢得无怨无悔；男人之美，在于说谎说得白日见鬼

13. 长个包子样就别怨狗跟着

14.女人谨记：一定要吃好玩好睡好喝好 ,一但累死了 ,就别的女人花咱的钱，住咱的房，睡咱的老公，泡咱的男朋友，还打咱的娃。

15. 妈妈说，骑白马的不一定是王子，他可能是唐僧；带翅膀的也不一定是天使——>>> > 那是鸟人。

16. 男人感叹女人：漂亮的不会下厨房，能下厨房的不温柔，温柔的没主见，有主见的没女人味，有女人味的乱花钱，不乱花钱的不时尚，时尚的不放心，放心的没法看！

17.当时我的结婚钻戒离下水道只有10公分！四分之一炷香之后，我终于决定结束这种每日提心吊胆的生活......让老公再买个大钻戒备份！

18.水至清则无鱼,人至贱则无敌

19. 我不是你想象的那样完美那样坚强，金钱和美女就足以把我征服！

20.为中华而努力读书！一包中华好多钱啊 ~~~

21.床前明月光，低头吃便当！

22.女人无所谓正派，正派是因为受到的引诱不够；男人无所谓忠诚，忠诚是因为背叛的筹码太低……

23.听说女人如衣服，兄弟如手足，回想起来，我竟然七手八脚地裸奔了19年

24. 烧香的不一定是和尚，还可能是熊猫...

25.上帝欲使人灭亡，必先使其疯狂；上帝欲使人疯狂，必先使其买房。。 #．$ %~*^@&~

结论是：现在不能买房！

26. 别人都在假装正经，那我就只有假装不正经啦。

27.喝醉了我谁也不服,我就扶墙!

28.我就像一只趴在玻璃上的苍蝇，前途一片光明，但又找不到出路．

29.谁说我白，瘦，漂亮~我就跟他做好朋友~

30.白天停水，晚上停电，发不出工资，买不起面，打开邓选找到答案，原来是社会主义初级阶段，翻到最后，我靠，一百年不变。

31."什么叫乐观派的人？""这个……就像茶壶一样，屁股都烧得红红的，他还有心情吹口哨！"

32.关于丁字裤：以前，脱下内裤看屁股；现在，拔开屁股看内裤……

33.避孕的效果：不成功，便成人?

秋莲板面

2010-03-17T20:48:00.001+08:00

Finally here to blog about my favourite and beloved 秋莲板面. Located just opposite the toilet inside the hawker centre and beside a hokkien mee stall, 秋莲板面 is a must try if you do not go Bedok central frequently.

Frequented this stall for almost 2 years and finally decided to blog about it. This bowl was eaten last thursday.

Costs : $3/bowl

Thickness of the noodles was pretty good, not too thick and not too thin. the noodles do not turn soggy immediately if left there. Rather, it will begin to soften slowly as compared to other types of 板面. The portion is just right, not too large while not being too small.

What makes this 板面 so nice is all because of its soup. The soup is strong in flavour. Saltiness + fragrance of ikan billis (anchovies) & deep fried onion. I would reccomend the chilli sauce to be added to make it bowl of noodles even better.

The minced meat in the noodles is chewy, wasnt too hard or soft..The vegetable is always added last when the aunty is cooking cause it to be more crunchy and not too hard to chew. The vegetable may taste a little sweet too.

Overall, this stall is strongly recommended.

Rating: 10/10

Foody day

2010-03-17T03:09:00.001+08:00

1) H's grandma hse

Nice food cooked by H's grandma.. Was simple but sumptous. The the feeling of food cooked with feelings. Gave a homely feel.

The dish on the top left hand corner is cabbage soup. Followed by the dish in right hand corner which is the pork with black sauce and tau pok. The last dish on the left hand side of pic is fish soup.

Only tried the cabbage soup and the pork with black sauce.

Found the pork with dark sauce delicious. The gravy had a sweet taste, along with a tinge of saltiness. However, the gravy did not come with the oily feeling. Instead, it makes you crave for more giving a satisfied feeling. It'll be better if u could add some gravy to rice when eating. The fragrance of piping hot rice and the gravy mixed gives you a ultra "shiok" feeling.

Next was the cabbage soup. No special ingredients here. Tasted normal, and makes you want for more (if u like cabbage of course).

Thanks H & grandma =)
Rating: 10/10

2)Taka orchard Hokkaido Ice

Costs $4.30 per scoop with cone.

I bought the green tea flavour and found it tasting marvellous. The ice cream manage to bring out theessence of japanese green tea. The biterness, followed by the slightly acidic aftertaste. Wonder if they really brew tea just to make this ice cream instead of using those concentrate. Coupled with the creamy flavour of milk, this flavour caused me look forward to every lick.Savouring every drip of the cream.

There are also many other flavours of ice cream available at this stall, ranging from bitter chocolate to even ice milk tea. What creativity the Japanese have!

Rating 9/10 ( -1 for the price)

3) Fried new year cake in Taka

Worst thing i have eaten in my whole life?

Although the rice cake's texture was ok, however, felt the sauce pretty unsuitable for me. It was ladened with excessive chilli sauce/ spiciness and caused hard to eat. Thus, one must take nte of the spiciness before trying.

Not sure whether if it is psychology, i felt warm in my chest after consumong this sauce.

Rating: 5/10(-5 for spiciness)

Thats all for today. Hope to see you soon !

I've LOST !!!

2010-03-15T12:42:00.000+08:00

I've lost !! =)

ahahah... i finalyl lost some weight recently !!

starting from 3 wks ago, was weighing abt 73.4kg
Currently approx 71.8kg

3 wks ago 32"
current 31"

Losing about 0.5kg/week and then my waistline went down by approx 1".

No wonder my pants seem much wider than normal and most of them are sliding downwards alr. Argh needa spend $ on new clothes =)

Feeling nearer and nearer to my target weight ( 65 kg here i come !!)

左腳，請儘快復原！

2010-03-13T19:03:00.002+08:00

左腳從生出來久有許許多多的問題。從骨架上有問題之外還受過了不少的内傷及外傷。

小一時候因爲腳的后端有一塊多餘的骨而因此常常去看醫生還有推拿。還照了幾次X光。我還記得在十嵗左右時，第一次扭到這只腳。當時還腫得像大象的腿一樣。

昨天又受到了“重傷”。一時不留意把 dance floor 砸在自己的腳上。真的很痛！

To: 那位剛受傷的朋友，請好好休息、希望您早日復原。=)

起床了。。。

2010-03-13T08:07:00.002+08:00

起床了之後，沒想到那種隱藏在心裏的壓迫感依然存在。現在早晨八點零二分。胸口還感到很狹窄，呼吸真的很困難。希望能因此窒息。前晚那種不愉快的心事從沒消失過。可能因爲這樣我才會失眠，想睡但又睡不着。

這永遠是本人在課業上永遠的污點。

此時此刻都是注定的嗎？人生真的有第二次機會嗎？真的是在乎曾經擁有而不在乎天長地久嗎？

我真的真的累了。真希望能夠離開這是非之世界。

千千萬萬的如果......
數也數不清的早知道......

12/3/2010

2010-03-12T22:25:00.000+08:00

I'm finally blogging bout my feelings =) !!

But ironically im using it as a channel to vent off the steam i have in my body. The steam only can pass through my hands(to type) and eyes (to see this web page duh ) no other places to go already.

Firstly, my results - a disapponting one. Here's my results. A,B+,B,C+,C... A variety of all the results available =.=

Did not even to maintain GPA to be at 3.5 . (fail !) I already did the best i could for those papers already, really really, sometimes what you put in isnt what you get. H & A are die hard muggers, presumably (or unexpectedly) they had exceptionally good results. All i wished for was just a 3.6.Was i expecting too much ? I should take a leaf out of H & A. Wonder whats their method of studying..Gonna promise to do that next sem. AIM TO BE LIKE H & A !!!

Secondly, my workplace. The sickening colleague in FSH. Lets call him R. Sickening guy, its my first day of work and u dare to say i cant work. Sorry lor this one my first job as banquet. Need to tell everybody in the staffroom meh? U think you who. Thinking that i dun understand M, say that to other M ppl. F U!!! Dun ever wish to work with this budah kecil !

On the other hand, workplaces colleagues other than R were ultra nice. Esp those da jie aunties who set up the property venue. They are really v experienced and kind. Not to forget J, H, D who were nice supervisors and took care of this "first timer" over here. Spent the whole day clearing rubbish, setting up tables & chairs =). Overall a satisfied worker although FSH did not satisfly the "ove and belonginess" tier in Maslow's Hierarchy of needs.

Looking forward to HK trip and then before another semester to chiong.. There's always light at the end of tunnel and i believe in that..

Miracles do happen (it already did , by me even trying blogging out feelings). hope it does so again =)

HK Drama

2010-03-11T22:20:00.000+08:00

(taken from http://www.tvb.com.hk/)

Recently started watching a HK drama entitled 五味人生。The cast is pretty good with 關詠荷( the one in extreme right hand corner in yellow shirt), 米雪 (extreme left hand corner in blue), 郭晉安 (man in the middle wearing hat).

The cast is generally experienced. People like 郭晉安 who has previously acted as 阿旺.

The show is very funny at the start and has a creative storyline revolving around 5 tastes of life, sweet, sour, bitter and spicy. Indeed is a challenging one for 米雪 as she's acting like a moron instead of the usual evil woman as depicted her previous drama's such as 溏心風暴.

More pics of the drama below

( taken from http://ent.gd.sina.com.cn/news/2010/01/11/U2954P696T15D574934F334DT20100111095645.jpg)

(taken from http://www.chnxw.com/uploads/allimg/100119/112111E38-0.jpg)

The theme song of this drama is also meaningful. Do listen (its in cantonese) and see the lyrics if u really cant understand.

lyrics here:

無驚無險無後顧地我會懶爭氣

人生如低到就貼地轉角有轉機

全場也在瞬間如像鳥獸飛

留下會是我的知己

就是傷悲襯托歡喜

就是酸苦澀亦要細味

就是分開叫我想起

路上有你很美苦滲著甜味

曾經迷失埋下儲備見慣惡天氣

離開成功有段距離我至會更加用力氣

未怕死溜後到奮起

流淚過程那須講起

就是傷悲襯托歡喜

就是酸苦澀亦要細味

就是分開叫我想起

路上有你很美

淡泊之間滲進驚喜

就是酸苦澀亦覺細膩

大難不死你會想起

現實世界很美苦滲著甜味

苦滲著甜味

Bye!~ off to continue watching, currently at episode 12

Changi Aiport - where good food starts

2010-03-10T13:20:00.002+08:00

Terminal 2 staff canteen

合家歡板面

According to http://lovesingaporefood.blogspot.com/2008/06/he-jia-huan-ban-mian.html they claimed this stall claims to sell the best 板面 in Singapore.

(Pic taken from http://lovesingaporefood.blogspot.com/2008/06/he-jia-huan-ban-mian.html)

Went to try it a few days ago. Not as nice as expected it to be.

湯底感覺上很清淡，帶點甜味。有些攤的清淡很像滾水，可是呢這攤就沒有這個問題。但是美中不足的是板面有點薄，沒有那種面的Q感。湯裏又有肉脞又有瘦肉，覺得很獨特。肉質非常嫩。

Rating: 7/10

Personally feel that the 秋蓮板面 in bedok interchange is nicer than this stall as it serves a soup base with a stronger taste and smell. To me, not really best in Singapore though.

Changi Airport - Where good food starts

2010-03-10T00:28:00.002+08:00

Terminal 1 Staff Canteen

Stall 1 - 砂煲 Stall

Items ate : 醉雞湯 + 麻油雞 + Assam 魚

Lets start off with 醉雞湯。味道非常重，每口帶出濃郁的花雕酒味。雞肉即嫩又潤滑，非常爽口。每喝一口會讓你在想喝。Rating 10/10

Next is 麻油雞。滷汁非常清爽，味道不是想象中那樣的重。不會太甜也不會太咸。滷汁清淡又香又帶麻油的香。雞肉嫩，且非常少脂肪。雞肉吸收到滷汁的精華。Rating 10/10

Assam 魚酸中帶辣。Assam汁能讓魚變得鮮甜，又顯出Assam汁的香. Rating 10/10

Service was prompt with kind & thoughtful stall holder

Costs $3/dish for staff & $4/dish for public

(What was left behind after those 3 dishes)

Stall 2 - Jap stall (one with red lantern)

It sells a handful of Japanese food set that are mostly deep fried (tempura). Serving was generous and food there tasted delicious. Savour every bite out of the deep fried ebi before enjoying the fragrance of the miso soup. Prices are affordable based on Singapore's living standard. However, prices vary due to the different types of meat used for the set meal.

Rating: 9/10 (-1 for ther time taken to prepare)

Please leave some comments and tell me if i should continue this blog

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2010-03-09T23:59:00.012+08:00

weird day with mixed feelings

Went for training as usual. Was asked if i wanted to go to the chalet but i refused at first. However, after the extra training during the gossip session (although i felt a little left out) i felt that the people had shared a close bond. Sitting in the gossip session made me feel as if i were part of them which made me wanting to join the chalet in the end.The feeling was stronger then i chatted with C at the bus stop.. Maybe it'll be a fun one.. =)

The bad news... There is a possibility of the next struggle in the same place.. Haix why the world revolves round in politics/revenge/resentment. Apparently I heard both sides of the story but i don't know who's in the right/wrong..Hope this misunderstanding will clear.